Yesterday, I made a decision I never thought I would make. I agonized for days before going to Weebly and renewing my contract with them. I signed for not one, but two years. There will be no blood oath to the Gods this time, but I will honor my responsibility and help those in our religion through June 15, 2014.
You may say to yourselves what is the big deal Glenn, you have done it for two years why not just continue ? Well, first of all I am a man of deep convictions, but also one who is tormented daily by contradictions. I am not a writer, yet I write. I am a very private person, but almost every day I put my personal feelings on these pages. I hate organized religion, but for the last two years I have been doing everything in my power to help build the Asatru religion. I was an Agnostic all those years ago, and never wanted to believe in Gods and Goddesses . However, when they speak to me so clearly I have no choice but to listen, and acknowledge Their existence. I am an old man who does not have much love left in his heart, and yet I love our Gods and Goddesses more than I love life itself. All of this scares the hell out of me sometimes, and yet I find an inner peace from the Gods and Goddesses that I have never known before. All these contradictions cause me what feels like actual pain, and yet I feel so much joy at the same time ! Most of all I am a man who has little faith in himself, but is held up by those I have met, especially recently, who seem to have all the faith in the world in me. I am a shattered soul one minute, and a shining spirit the next. I am a living, breathing, contradiction !
But those my friends are my problems, not yours. I will continue on the path the Gods have placed me on and do the very best I can for all of you, who have been so very kind the past two years. Though I know only a few of you, I consider you to all be my folk, and my friends. The only change I will be making after June 15th of this year, is that I will only be posting about twice a week. Age, work, and poor health have made it difficult to do more.
To the hundreds of regulars who come to my site, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. And to the thousands of visitors who come monthly I say welcome, and bless you also. To my special friends who have had so much faith in an old grumpy man, I bless you most of all. You are the crutch that keeps me from falling down, and the voice of encouragement that keeps me moving foward.
May the Gods bless you all !!
Go with Odin's wisdom, Freyja's love, and Thor's protection !