I do know that they test us all the time. They tested my courage, and inner strength, by asking me to get on a plane and go to Iceland. I had no passport, never really been outside the U.S., and had never been in an airport, let alone on a 757 jet streaking across the Atlantic Ocean, but in 2009 They said that They wanted me to go see the new Asatru temple that was just built, so I went. Then when I got there, They asked me not to go see it. That was one hell of a test ! Instead They wanted me to see the temple that they had built. The geological temple that is the landscape of Iceland itself. I listened, and it was the most stark, rugged, and beautiful place I have ever seen in my life. ( And I have climbed mountains here in the U.S. ) I now refer to Iceland as the Temple of the Aesir.
They next asked me to reach out to people in our religion. I had never really met anyone in our religion, except the few I met in Iceland ! So I figured Their nuts. I can' t do that ! Then by a strange coincidence I sent Galina Krasskova an e - mail, and then started to tell her my stories. She then said that I should stop telling her these stories, and start up a blog and tell others. I had no clue how to do this, ( it took two attempts), but somehow the pieces fell into place. They always seem to when the Gods and Goddesses want it. Then I was afraid I would not be able to write enough, or anything of value. After almost 250 articles, and many visitors thanking me for helping them with inspirational stories, I guess I passed that test too.
Then they asked me to refer to myself in a way that was more respectful to Them. I was totally against this, and resisted for almost a year ! ODIN WAS NOT PLEASED ! So I relented to Their will and now use the titles Godi and Kennari. Kennari I actually don't mind, I do consider myself to be a teacher in the Asatru religion. I don't like Priests, or the Priesthood, and never have. I use this title reluctantly and very sparingly. Odin has not reacted to that yet !
I sometimes feel like the proverbial camel that has more and more loaded on his back. The load has become very heavy indeed, and I hope that I can deal with the great weight of responsibility the Gods and Goddesses have placed upon me. I hope and pray that the Gods will not place the, "straw" , that breaks, "the back", of my strength and will. I have to admit that even though I get scared sometimes, They have made me a much stronger person. And a much better person as well ! The will of the Gods and Goddesses can do that to you, and all you have to do is open your heart and your soul to Them.
I do not know what they will ask of me next, but I will accept what they offer, and keep my head held high, and meet the challenges with strength and fortitude. But if you look closely you will see my hands shaking a bit !
Go with Odin's wisdom, Freyja's love, and Thor's protection !