The anger that I felt was immense ! We in the Asatru religion talk of community, kindred, and being like folk, but when it comes down to it we seem to treat each other as though we were adversaries. Well, if not adversaries, at least as suspicious strangers. In all of my years of honoring the old Gods and Goddesses only three people, who are from the established Asatru community , have ever shown me any true kindness. And I thank Galina, Mike, and Michaela, very much for their kind words and advice. Unfortunately they do not represent the majority of people I have met from our religion. It wasn't until I started An Independent Asatru, and began to correspond with others who had an independent spirit, that I began to realize that there were others out there just like me. Good people, who were tired of being told what to do, and how to do it, by those established individuals in our religion. Intelligent people, who have ideas, great ideas, but because they are not part of the establishment, would never be listened to or taken seriously.
I remember how free I felt to be liberated from the shackles of trying to impress, and placate, those who were leaders in our religion. It was as though a great weight was lifted off of my shoulders. With the burden gone I was free to be the person that the Triad of Gods and Goddesses wanted me to be. Free to express my views, and opinions, and not care if it went against the established views, or dogma of our religion. I know longer had to worry about being accepted, I could just be me ! And I vowed that I would never treat those I meet the same way that I was treated.
I look back on those years and wonder why I tried so hard to be accepted by those I now have no respect for. I actually believed at one point that if I didn' t belong to something, anything in our religion, that somehow I was not honoring the Gods and Goddesses properly ! The point I finally realized is that I DO belong to something, and it is much bigger than any group, kindred, or organization. My love, my soul, and my very life belong to the Aesir and Vanir Gods and Goddesses, and in particular to the Triad of Gods who first called to me all those years ago. They have never asked me to be anything other than what I am, and I am what the Gods have made me. I love and honor them so much because they accept me with all my flaws and imperfections. They expect me to be me, and only me, not some carbon copy of someone else ! How could I not love and respect them for that !
I will remain an independent Asatruar for the rest of my life, and will fight against those who insist that they have a better ,and the only path to our Gods and Goddesses. The best path to the Gods and Goddesses is through ourselves, not through others. Our Gods want us to be independent, free thinking men and women, not sheep being led by a shepherd ! Be an individual ! Be yourself ! Have an independent view point, and announce your independence today !!
Go with Odin's wisdom, Freyja's love, and Thor's protection !