Mother's Day is both a happy time and a sad time for me. I have many wonderful childhood memories of my mother that I cherish
immensely. She was warm, kind, and very forgiving. Trust me, my brother and I needed a lot of forgiving ! She was always there to dry our tears, make us laugh, or mend our clothes. She was our psychologist, to ease our fears, a doctor to bandage our wounds, and a friend when no one else was around. She was everything to my brother and I, and we miss her so ! A woman with a heart as big as hers should have had a long and joyous life. Somethings, however, are not meant to be.
In her early 40's she started having dizzy spells, which led to many, many, doctors appointments, and hospital tests. She was diagnosed with just about everything , and anything you can imagine, by doctors trying to put a name on her symptoms. Finally, in 2000, 20 years later, she had a catscan of her brain which discovered that she had Multiple Sclerorsis. The next six years of her life were a living nightmare for her, and her passing was sweet relief. Through all of the agonizing pain she never lost her dignity, her lust for life, or her ability to laugh. To me she was the bravest person I ever knew ! As brave as any hero that you read about in the Eddas and Sagas. Her foe was death, and she looked it in the eyes, and fought against it right up until the end. She was so strong !
I will spend this Mother's Day as I always do, looking through old photographs, listening to her records ( that I hated as a kid), and re - living those happy memories that I shared with her. I will go up to the cemetery and visit her earthly remains, and place flowers on her grave. I will honor her with two ceremonies this day. I will ask Mother Frigga and All - Father Odin to look after her, for she was as strong as any warrior, yet retained a heart of gold. I will also do something I would do for almost no one else, I will open her bible and say a few words, for her, in her religion. Though my mother was not a devout Christian, she was baptized and belonged to the Dutch Reformed Church of Highland Park. Then I will go home and miss her all the more. Love you mom, now and forever !
Go with Odin's wisdom, Freyja's love and Thor's protection !